Don’t go far off, not even for a day, because — because — I don’t know how to say it: a day is long and I will be waiting for you, as in an empty station when the trains are parked off somewhere else, asleep.
Don’t leave me, even for an hour, because then the little drops of anguish will all run together, the smoke that roams looking for a home will drift into me, choking my lost heart.
Oh, may your silhouette never dissolve on the beach; may your eyelids never flutter into the empty distance. Don’t leave me for a second, my dearest,
because in that moment you’ll have gone so far I’ll wander mazily over all the earth, asking, Will you come back? Will you leave me here, dying?
Something I've been thinking about more frequently and with more depth:
I really don’t have any regrets in my life. I’ve said this before but I always follow it up with the thought that maybe there’s some moment that I can’t remember that I actually would change. I wonder about the people I’ve met, the friends I’ve made (and lost), the lips I’ve kissed. No matter how shitty they were, I would never go back and change them because then I wouldn’t be me.
Every thing you do, person you come in contact with, and moment you breathe has shaped who you are today. Where would I be without them?
If I hadn’t befriended what’s-her-name freshman year, would I still dress the way I do?
If I didn’t take that class with Ms. W when I was 13, would I still be pursuing theatre as a career?
If I didn’t meet so-and-so in middle school, would I still be a bitch?
Something I came to terms with a few months ago is that everything is an experience and, especially as an actor, experience is your Barney bag (you remember; that craft bag they used on the Barney show that just seemed to have everything they needed?). You use that bag everyday to make decisions, form opinions, or, sometimes, to create a character.
Every negative thing that happens to me I strangely appreciate, because I know that one day, maybe years from now, I will be able to pull it out of my bag and make something great.
Sorry if this was random or you’re pissed that I haven’t been posting my usual amount of “pretty pictures” (it’s the first week of classes, I’ve been busy!) but I kind of hope this helped at least one person gain perspective on a situation they may currently be going through.